Comfort and Joy

I will turn their mourning into gladness; I will
give them comfort and joy instead of sorrow.
Jeremiah 31:13

Thursday, September 10, 2009

sweet Forrest

The 10th is here. How can 2 years have already passed. I thought I was going to do ok today because there is so much going on with the race that I wasn't sure if I would have time to grieve but now as I sit here in a quiet house (just put Austin down for his morning nap), I am truly sad. I miss him so much sometimes I feel like my heart is being torn in two. It is true that time heals but at the same time, it takes you farther away from the precious moments you had with your child. I sometimes want time to stop because what if I forget something, what if I don't remember something about him. I still remember the way his skin felt when I touched it, the way his little hand grasped my finger, the way his eyes sparkled when he saw his daddy. I am so scared I will forget those things. 2 years...I can't get over it. 2 years ago today I was sitting in a hospital bed waiting to meet my first child. I was so naive. I thought if you made it through the pregnancy with a healthy mom and a healthy child, than it was home free. I would walk out of that hospital 2 days after the 10th with a precious child of God in my arms for me to love, hold, and take care of for life. In a matter of 10 hours how our lives changed forever. Forrest was so beautiful and so perfect. God molded him inside my womb to be perfect. It wasn't the way I wanted him to be but he was perfect in God's sight. God knew that in 55 short days he was going to join Him in Heaven as one of his newest angels. I am so proud of my son, I am so honored to be his mommy.

Happy 2nd Birthday Sweet Forrest. I love and miss you with all my heart. Make sure Jesus holds you real tight today since your mommy can't.
This picture was taken when he was opening his eyes to look at us for the first time, day 32.


Jenny said...

Happy Birthday, sweet boy. You continue to touch so many lives and have changed so many. We're so thankful for your precious life.

Donna said...

I read Eric Haag's post on facebook and clicked on the link to see who/what he was talking about. I'm sitting here at my computer with tears streaming down my face. I can not even imagine what it would be like to lose a child. My heart breaks for you. God bless you.

kathleenkersting said...

I too read Eric Haag's post on Facebook and clicked the link. My heart breaks for you and you continue to grieve the loss of your little one.

My thoughts are with you and your family today.

wburn fam said...

It takes some people a lifetime to do all that's been done in Forrest's name in 2 short years. What an impact and what a servant your baby boy continues to be. Happy Birthday, Sweet Forrest. Praise the Lord for your life!

alicia harrison said...

Thank you for sharing your sweet thoughts. We are praying for you today. Happy birthday Forrest, you impacted more people and spread Gods love to more people in those 55 days then others do in a lifetime!