5 years

It's been 5 years since:
- I held his hand
- I kissed his face
- I slept beside him
- I held him in my arms
- I touched him
- I prayed beside him

Some days it seems so long ago and some days it seems like yesterday.

David and I spent this weekend with friends at the lake and it was so good to just get away for a little bit. As we were driving and seeing the change of leaves on the trees, we were reminded of a similar drive 5 years ago when we drove to Montreat after Forrest's funeral. During that drive we were so broken and in so much pain. It truly felt like we couldn't breathe without feeling like we were being crushed. God has been so evident and so real these last 5 years. He has been our comforter and healer and showed us His love when it was hard to even see through the tears.

We are so thankful that God entrusted us to be Forrest's parents. What a privilege and honor to be called his mommy. We are so thankful for the 55 days we spent with him and for the privilege to carry on his legacy and memory through the Forrest Spence Fund.

I miss you sweet boy. I would give anything to hold your hand one more time, kiss your head one more time, lay beside you one more time, and just breathe in the smell of you.

I love you now and forever...to the moon and back.